2010年2月7日 星期日


Seraphine (花開花落): Ecstasy Vs Realism

Yesterday I saw this unusual movie – Seraphine, directed by Martin Provost. Why unusual? – maybe unusual just in the eyes of Hong Kong people (heard people said its pace is too slow, there is no “great” story, 3D effects or even “pretty” sceneries or actress / actor). After all, it has won 7 Caesars – French Oscars!!!

The life of L. Seraphine of Senlis - the painter was a very difficult one (played by Yolande Moreau). Her lowly means of life as a servant could only earn herself very basic life essentials but she painted as if there was a need and vocation pouring out from her soul. She was self-taught, so called a Visionary artist of naïve style. Painting in absolute solitude chanting to herself, her passionate colorful pictures, sometimes huge in dimensions were inspired directly from nature and the stained glasses of churches.

Fortunately she was able to make her name known for a while through patronage of the German art collector Wilhelm Uhde though the latter did lose contact with her due to the First world war. Support was also halted in 1929 when the Great Depression set into Europe. While her inspired spirit was soon distanced from her supporter and disconnected with real life so full of mundane, she turned into a mentally cripple. She was taken to the Hospital in Clermont since 1932 where she died in 1942.

While modern life as happening now – some 100 years after the days of Seraphine, has emphasized the perfection and technicalities of the professionals: the doctor, the lawyer, the engineer, the businessmen, the chef, the musician, the artist etc etc etc, how many genius are being unrecognized just because they have to manage their everyday life and not admitted the “right school”? How many natural and great thoughts and ideas are unexposed, just because they don’t have a chance to be developed and discussed?

When you are really going for this film, be prepared for the pace akin to the natural 19th century French countryside, the simple story, and the startling paintings that make you start wondering or even chanting!

2010年2月5日 星期五


愛上寫作的腫瘤科醫生 – 我的非醫療博客

醫生不是「診症」的麼?幹嗎愛上寫作?莫非腫瘤科醫生的工作,天天與病人共同出生入死,生活沉悶,或積壓著滿肚牢騷,要找發洩的渠道?

就像今天早上剛從診症室目送一位失望的擴散肺癌者離開,跟著進來的一名患早期腸癌的女士,說不想作手術。前者苦苦哀求道,「我仔細老婆嫩,錢不成問題,請醫生你把我的病醫好吧!」我心想道:「太遲了,這不是錢的問題。有遠端器官擴散的肺癌的治療目標只能盡量控制病情。」後者則差點把我氣昏說:「只是一點兒腫瘤吧,我想試幾個月中藥,盡量都不想作手術,割腸很傷身的!」

人就是這樣的,總是「拗頸」。遲來了的重症說急著要根治,早期可治癒的卻偏偏選擇拖廷。腫瘤科醫生時常遇上這些事情,令我們看透了人!要寫作的題目,實在多著!

但從診症轉移到寫作,談何容易﹖雖然曾幾可時,書不離手,不能創作也能抄!但那是三十多年前中學時代了。隨後人生的歲月被學習與行醫的工作佔據了。一本又一本厚厚的醫書,驟眼看來冊冊都一樣的醫學期刊取代了各式各樣的讀物。每天書寫的都是一式一樣的病歷紀錄或轉介信。現時的語文能力可說是低至極點!

一個月前出版的處女作“變‧驚‧擁抱”絕不是偶爾之作。將癌病人心底裡要問的問題寫下來這主意已孕育多年。書中也借題抒發了自己對生命對生死的價值觀。最後更無保留地,暢快地寫下自己非醫生的一面,又隨書附送了自己彈奏鋼琴的音樂光碟。感覺是自己得益比讀者更多!看來嘗試寫作踏出了第一步,停下來也難!

將來寫些什麼﹖醫療腫瘤的故事一定要寫,但更想寫一點有趣的題目:如音樂、戲評、狗狗、飲飲食食、旅遊、甚至時事熱門話題如“八十後”、“五區請辭”、“豬流感疫苗”等等。我將視寫作為表達自我的藝術平台,將來以博客、手繪畫冊、論文、短篇文章、甚至小說與大家分享感受、思想和論調。

不知道誰人對醫生寫非醫療的題目有感興趣?

2009年11月18日 星期三

十二月新書:"變,驚,擁抱"


面「變」 不「驚」 「擁抱」當下

看見這本書的名字,可有令你摸不着頭腦?
或許你會想:這大概是一本講述感情問題的書吧?
沒錯,這是一本有關感情的書,但說及的不是兒女私情,而是不幸罹患擴散癌症病人和剩餘生命之間的情感糾纏。